March 31st, 2004

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I haven't been keeping up with LJ and I'm not going to read it now, either.

I am not going to get into details but this is related to the last post I made about how I'm ready for a change.

I hate my life right now. I can't stand it. It's giving me an ulcer just to have to live my life. I want to change it and I want to change EVERYTHING about it. I want to change it so much that nothing is there that even reminds me of how I feel right now. One of those things is LiveJournal. LJ is one of the contributors to me wasting away here in this cubicle never making progress with my life.

I'm not saying I'm giving up LJ. I'm too much of an addict. But if my presence here noticeably declines, it's because I need a break. From everything. I may come back if at some point I start feeling better.

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On the bright side, my car has not been attacked by baby spiders a third time.

That is all.

Really, I'm stopping now.
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    Dj Tiesto - Urban Train (Original Mix)

choices, #1

Choices

  1. I choose to take steps to become happy with who I am. This means changing who I am, not changing how I feel about myself. I choose to work to become more tolerant and empathetic and less selfish. I choose to unlearn my feeling of superiority over everybody else.

  2. I choose to stop being frustrated while driving. When I drive fast, it will be because it is fun, not because I am angry. I will not get frustrated at drivers ahead of me.

  3. I choose to live a more meaningful life. Very little TV, less video games, and less meaningless time on the Internet. More book reading, more intellectually stimulating activities. More musical variety.

  4. I choose to take more pride in myself. I choose to give more of a shit about what I wear and how I look.

  5. I choose to become more interesting, inside and out.
More as they come to me.

I'm doing a full teardown and rebuild of my personality, I guess. Maybe I'll chronicle it here, maybe I'll just post to track my own progress. Maybe not.