In spite of the fact that my wife passed away, I'm a really lucky and fortunate guy.
I just came from a house party where I was asked to DJ. I did, and had a great time. Before that, I took my son to see the 4th of July fireworks, and we had a blast. He loved them. "Fireworks daddy! Fireworks!"
Tomorrow I have a meeting with local photographers, a BBQ at my best friend's for his birthday, another BBQ with some of my DJ friends, a get-together at another friends house, and then I'm meeting some out of town friends for drinks. I get to spend some time with my son, but I also have a sitter for the rest of the night. I'm so lucky I get to do these things.
I know this because my marriage was pretty much just a weight around my neck. I loved her and always will, but I see now that I'm so much better off without that relationship holding me back. I never would have wanted things to end the way they did, but I'm glad to be out of it. Not very many people get a second chance at this part of life - the part where you're young and having fun. Sure, I have an 8 to 5, I have stress, I have bills, but I take care of that stuff, and I still have the time and money to kick it on the weekends. And that's a really fortunate thing. I'm happy. :-)