I got the pulsatin' rhythmical remedy (busychild424) wrote,
I got the pulsatin' rhythmical remedy

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See, what happened was, I was at my uncle's house...

My uncle is a pretty well-off guy. At least the uncle I'm talking about this time. He has lived in PA, CA, FL, VA, NC, SD, and I don't remember where else. He's worked for General Electric, AT&T, and some other big name places I can't remember right now. He is now the CFO of a credit card company. I was talking to him one day last Christmastime and it was because of what he said that I decided to go back to school. He said that getting a college education was essential to being successful. He said there were certain doors that just wouldn't open without a degree.

I feel like butt today. I can't believe that the bills I can't pay total twice as much as the ones I can pay. I don't have the first clue how I'm going to hang with school once I move beyond a community college when I can barely keep up now and it's only two weeks into the semester. When I'm feeling like I feel today, I think about my uncle's beautiful house. I think about his smiling face and how he ALWAYS seems to be at ease and comfortable. I think about his big-ass kitchen which I envy so much. I think about how for his fiftieth birthday he decided to go on a camping trip...to CLIMB Mount Kilimanjaro. How he got "stuck" in Amsterdam on the way back because of 9/11. I think about that stuff and about how by the time I'm thirty I could maybe have an MBA and it makes me want to hang. It makes me stay here in this shithole of a trench trying to survive. It doesn't seem like I'm making any progress but I guess that each day that goes by is a small victory. Every time I lay my head down at night and every time I pick it back up again in the morning, it's progress. This will pay off. I will be vindicated and this broke-ass time in my life will be justified and made up for. Karma will reward my diligence.

That's the hope.
Tags: dissatisfaction, money

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